I walk into the Garden
It is Beautiful
Beyond compare
I Dare
Chase
The Sun
Her Fire
Is a Lion
I walk around
This happy place
Killing all the flowers
Destroying their power
Each step
Lethal
Toxic
How do I Stop
Murdering this space?
The Sun's lovely Grace?
For each movement
Of my foot
Leaves a mark
In her heart
Each footfall
Moves me closer
To my demise
With all my Why's
I just may fall down a deep Well
For I can't tell
Or see the ground
Covered with fallen petals
Because of Me
I sit in the Garden
And am afraid to move
Am afraid that I have killed the thing
That brings me Joy
Am afraid to share Me
For I hurt the Sun with my presence
For I am Unintended in this Garden
The Sun has proclaimed me Unwanted
And I have wounded the Lion
And her Pride
I hide
In the Garden
And weep
Until I sleep
When I wake
Perhaps I won't be
The Ugly
The Toxic
The Controlling
The Disrespectful
Energy
In your Life
Perhaps when I wake
I'll be someone
You could love
Perhaps when I wake
I'll be someone
Else
In sadness and regret for having hurt those I care deeply for,
I remain,
Lesley
Hallelujah Heartist
