A Note

I saw you today, you were working;

Your head bent down in concentration

Your hair obscured your view of me

You could not see

That I saw

How invisible I am to you

I could have been luckier

I could have waited and stolen a star from your eyes, or radiance from your face

But then

I remembered our last interaction

                                    And felt out of place

I left

Unwilling to cause you discomfort

With unwanted attention

From me

I left

Because I’m a coward

Too afraid to just Be

In your light

In your sight

Without armour

Without fear of rejection

Without fear of the injection

Of pain

                                   

And now

I’m nauseous with unspoken emotions

Ill with feelings of awkwardness

Tired of the tangle - mysteriously wrought

Beating and alive within me

But mostly

I wish I’d been strong enough to wait and see

If you would say hello;

Strong enough to crumble in your presence, my Queen

 

I remain,

Lesley

Hallelujah Heartist