Snow falls plainly
Though plain it is not
There’s a subtle beauty
A silence
That reminds me
How serene this world can be
How soft
How lovely
The night pairs well with the snow
I can’t help but retract into Self
All my spiritual dreams
Arise as Winter
I recoil into
My sadness
My grief
Discard my skin
Unlike my incubating cave with its small fire – warmth
This cave is dark, void of heat and light
In this strange beauty
A Winter dream I had of You earlier this year, visits with me...
I happened by a game of catch when someone threw me the ball
I missed
The ball flew past
I followed its path
The terrain changed with each step
Until
I reached a home
Solid
Strong
Made of coloured brick, deep red hues of every kind
It was high
Rose to tower alone
Two boys watched me carefully from above
I followed their gaze down
Ah, yes - their ball lay nearby
I wouldn’t go near it
It wasn’t the one I was looking for
I moved back
Snow crunched underfoot
The scene went grey
It was now wet with Winter
I turned around
You greeted me with a warm smile
‘Need help?’ you asked
I suddenly realize
This fortress is yours
You live here
I noticed the turbulent ocean behind you
As you spoke
The shore was near
The solid earth beneath led to snowy sands
‘I’m looking for a baseball’ I managed
‘I’ll help you find it’ you responded
Always so helpful, I thought, even here
We began searching…
There it is
I pick it up and return my attention to you
Over your shoulder…someone’s in the distance
Near the water
Circling
Hovering
Watching
I can feel her
She doesn’t like me
I indicate with my chin
‘I thought you liked blondes’ my smile's a little smug
You glance over your shoulder
‘Oh, she’s alright’ you softly dismiss
But I could tell
You’re tied to her
The Other…she could be your twin
Same height
Same frame
Same hair
Though it plagued a cruel face
Obscuring her nature
Her negativity
Was powerful, I understood - she works to pull you into her
To control you
To keep you
Always to keep you
The Other – comes near
Sneers at me
Doesn’t want me around
She knows
My presence threatens her existence
But mostly
I felt You
I remember this night
I saw you the very next day
But unlike this spiritual dream where I felt your warm centre
Where you allowed me in
You kept me at a distance
When I asked for a moment of your time
I watched you turn your back
Relieved
Thankful
For the physical barrier of the cash counter between us
I haven’t dreamt of you since
It might be nice to meet you there again
One day
Without the Other
In Winter’s embrace
I remain,
Lesley
Hallelujah Heartist
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