We met
for the first
time
since the last
time
was anxious
when I saw
your eyes
your bright beautiful Soul
Throughout the day
my breath
could not
would not
steady
I felt sick
as I do even now
your touch
was strangely calming
I had been used to calming You
so I appreciated
the newness of this
my Being
Silently
wept and rejoiced
in your embrace
felt Calm
within
my centre where you live
lived
we made love
or
had sex
(I don't know what it was to you)
I wanted to
I wanted it to be about You
for You
it was my Gift
(it nourished Me - you have not yet fully felt how it nourished you)
it
was
my
Gift
of
goodbye
Afterwards
you
told me
that I
needed
to deal
with Me
myself
and I
on my
own
You Pushed me Away
with your words
You pushed
me
away
in the moment
my Heart
Opened
and I was
Vulnerable
You reminded Me
that
I am
in fact
alone
in my darkness
even now
the smell
of You
your Intimacy
lingers on
me
like a soft dream
that I wish to
remember
I Honour it
You
You always wash
after our intimacy
wash
the experience
of
Me
off
You
like a memory
that does not belong
A Friend
is what you
ask of
me
A Friend
I
will
try
and
what will be
will be
For all the Heartists who love unconditionally, walking steadily toward Divine Love's Light, our road is long and worthy. Our Journey is for the Mighty, it is not for any other.
I remain,
Lesléy
Hallelujah Heartist
