A Friend

We met
for the first
time
since the last
time

was anxious
when I saw
your eyes
          your bright beautiful Soul

Throughout the day
           my breath
could not
would not
steady
I felt sick
as I do even now

your touch
was strangely calming
          I had been used to calming You
so I appreciated
the newness of this

my Being
Silently
wept and rejoiced
in your embrace
felt Calm
within
my centre where you live
          lived

we made love
or
had sex
          (I don't know what it was to you)
I wanted to

I wanted it to be about You
for You
it was my Gift
          (it nourished Me - you have not yet fully felt how it nourished you)
it
was
my
Gift
of
goodbye

Afterwards

you
told me
that I
needed
to deal
with Me
myself
and I
          on my
own


You Pushed me Away
          with your words


You pushed
me
away
in the moment
my Heart
Opened
and I was
Vulnerable
          You reminded Me
that
I am
in fact
alone
          in my darkness


even now
the smell
of You
          your Intimacy
lingers on
me
like a soft dream
that I wish to
remember
          I Honour it

You

You always wash
after our intimacy
wash
the experience
of
Me
off
You
          like a memory
that does not belong


A Friend
is what you
ask of
me

A Friend
I
will
try
          and
          what will be
will be


For all the Heartists who love unconditionally, walking steadily toward Divine Love's Light, our road is long and worthy.  Our Journey is for the Mighty, it is not for any other.

I remain,

Lesléy

Hallelujah Heartist