love for one

Today

I thought of you

Made love to you

            Touched myself

            Imagined you touched me

            With soft caresses

                        Slow in your movements

                        As though you had love for me

                                                Which you longed to share

Today

I thought of you

Fucked you

            Touched myself

            Imagined you were fucking me

            Raw in every way

                        Fervent in your movements

                        As though your hunger for me

                                                Could not be contained

The wetter I became

The more I desired you

It felt

Insatiable

                        This need

Planetary aspects

            I remind myself -

                        This will fade…

                                    There is no relationship with you

                                    So this cannot continue

                                               

This energy will die

I hit a high

Climaxed

            Trembled

I crashed

With a low

           

                        Began to cry

                                    As I let go

My body

Released

In shudders

            Disembodied emotions

                       

                        Nameless feelings

                        Expelled

                        To Freedom

                                    Is this goodbye?

I turned to my side

Shut my eyes

Imagined you near

Next to me

Here

With your hand upon my sex

As you slept

My weeping faded

           

Slowly sank

            Into the beauty

            Of love

                        When it grows quiet with sleep

                       

                        In a lover’s bed

                                                         

I remain,

Lesley

Hallelujah Heartist