Today

I remember when....

I met 

You

my Heart Cracked Open

Time

tapped

ever so
slightly

on the delicate

shell 

of 

Want
          and soon

          small subtle fractures

gave way

to what lay

within

          gave way

to the 

dynamic

chaos

          that Vulnerability

          invites

          and

I can no longer go back

          nor do I want to

Today

right here

right now

my Heart is beating

          with its extra beat

fluttering beneath

a blanket

of anxiety

          a subtle tone of unsurety

I

inhale and do not smell the air

instead

the breath goes to my mind

and

gives rise to worry thoughts

          is there someone out there for Me?

can anyone Love Me?

I feel the tight

brittle

clench of my fingers as I write

          I notice the lines

on my hands

creased in design

and 

wonder
          if Time 

          is a Healer and a Friend

Today is what it is, and I'm blessed to be Alive to notice, to Cherish, to Love.

I remain,

Lesléy

Hallelujah Heartist