Gone

my breath
has yet
to
fall
into
place

My Heart
is faltering
irregular
in
pace

your eyes
had
tears
had
     fear

me

     I was
the reason
     I was
unclear
as to
why
     you're afraid of me?

No
I'm sorry
that can't happen
again

You said
it
All
so
many
times
in
so
many
ways
     I should've
listened
     walked away
never came back

I was wrong to think
     believe
we were
together

it hurts
still
to know
I may never
get
forever

with you

nor any chance
to live
as before
when lives
     past
seeped
through
this
     door
into the Present

but how
I wished
for
     in
a
happy
    ever
after

with you


One day it won't hurt and my breath will finally steady, the gasps for air, the sudden panic in the night when I remember you are no longer in my life, will heal.  For now I'll just cry, let it out, exhaust myself with it, until I've no tears left, and I can breathe again.  For now I'll just write.


I remain,

Lesléy

Hallelujah Heartist